When I started this journey, one of the key factors in me believing in God, in any God, had a few strings attached:
- He had to be unlike the god of this world; look around and see the filth occupying the people’s hearts of this world. Consumed with the thought of money and black in their efforts to attain their desires
- He must have power, unlike that of the god of religions. Whose followers exercise the mantra that they are being tested when their prayers are not answered.
Listening to the world, the God of the scriptures is cruel, malignant, misogynistic and overall a terrible being. Still, I checked for myself, and after reading through the scriptures, I found this not to be the case. He was opposite to how the world described. He also promised what is outlined below in his own words.
13. And whatsoever ye shall ask in my name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son.John 14:13-14 (KJV)
14. If ye shall ask any thing in my name, I will do it.
He has promised to grant anything asked in his name — a demonstration of his power. He is unlike — opposite — to the god of this world. A promising start to my journey and looked like exactly what I was seeking. Still, a promise of words is not the same as seeing it with your own eyes. Otherwise, would I be following an imaginary being?
The challenge here is, how do I ask in his name to have my request granted and allay my fears of following a figment of my imagination — even worst, someone else’s imagination. A long and hard search began, which culminated in a chicken and egg situation.
His name is his will, his instructions, his laws, his commandments and his nature, but we are clearly instructed not to tempt (test) him. This commandment eliminates the possibility of getting a demonstration outside of genuinely desiring to be in his will. You have to be genuinely seeking him and then ask in his name and only then will his power manifest. On his terms — when you ask in his name. God is not a flute to be played.
Jesus said unto him, It is written again, Thou shalt not tempt the Lord thy God.Matthew 4:7 (KJV)
Ye shall not tempt the LORD your God, as ye tempted him in Massah.Deuteronomy 6:16 (KJV)
Wherefore the people did chide with Moses, and said, Give us water that we may drink. And Moses said unto them, Why chide ye with me? wherefore do ye tempt the LORD?Exodus 17:2 (KJV)
Thou shalt not take the name of the LORD thy God in vain; for the LORD will not hold him guiltless that taketh his name in vain.Exodus 20:7 (KJV)
Recently, after taking some time to come to grips with my eyes being opened by God and seeing the black hearts, the greed, corruption and the extent of the network that has wrapped this world I was finally able to get back on the horse and move forward.
We are all forged in the fire
I see the daily attack on the King, Ishi every day and the spewing of Baalim from the mouths in such blasphemous and vile disregard. It saddens my heart to hear and see the disrespect of the Most High and to see the death march everywhere.
Hell has enlarged itself
It occurred to me to contact an acquaintance. Immediately, there was a barrage of whispers shouting in my head. The voice was soft and gentle, but persistent that I should not take this course of action. Hearing these voices was not the first time, and I had not always got it correct in the past — there are many voices; which one is that of the King? I tried to ignore it, but would it be to my detriment? The will of the Most High is not always your will; what do you do?
What do you ask the Most High?
I spoke in my heart to the King and said, if it is not your will then let the phone not connect. I proceeded to dial with confidence that the matter was out of my hands and in those of God. It rang twice then disconnected. I look at my phone, and it read, “couldn’t connect”. What!? I dialled again, but this time it didn’t ring at all, it just said, couldn’t connect. No matter how the real-world mechanics of this played out, it was clear.
Could it be?
What else? It was not in his will — I don’t know why, but this is the case. Should I now doubt when everything leading to this point has culminated in the logical deduction based on the evidence? It is plain to see, and I believe because I have seen.
Am I righteous?
I have sinned many times on this journey, but I have purposed in my heart with determination to walk the path set before me by God. I have repented with sincerity, and I walk following his word. He has rewarded me with wisdom and has opened my eyes to the utter depravity of this world. The hearts of men and the state of this world are as black as Night. I follow the bright and morning star — the Sun, which shines by Day and no man stumbles.
I will call his name Ishi — be damned all those who oppose him and his servant(s)!