At the start of my journey to righteousness, one of the key factors in me believing in God, in any God, had a few strings attached:
- He had to be unlike the god of this world. Look around and see the filth occupying the people’s hearts of this world, consumed with the thought of money and wicked in their efforts to attain their desires
- He must have power, unlike that of the god of religion. Religions are man-powered and have no experience of God besides adrenaline and the riches given to those destined for destruction (Mark 10:23).
When I hear the world speak, they say the God of heaven is cruel, malignant, misogynistic and a terrible being. Still, I checked for myself, and after reading through the scriptures, I found this not to be the case. He was opposite to how the world described and also promised what is outlined below in his own words.
13. And whatsoever ye shall ask in my name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son.
John 14:13-14 (KJV)
14. If ye shall ask any thing in my name, I will do it.
He has promised to grant anything asked in his name—a demonstration of his power as long as we operate under His authority. He is the opposite of the god of this world who is wanton with sin. A promising start to my journey and looked like exactly what I was seeking. Still, a promise in words is not the same as seeing it with your own eyes. Otherwise, would I be following an imaginary being?
Ask In His Name
The challenge here is, how do I ask in his name to have my request granted and allay my fears of following a figment of my imagination—even worst, someone else’s imagination. A long and arduous search began, culminating in a chicken and egg situation.
His name is his will, instructions, laws, commandments and nature, but we are clearly instructed not to tempt (test) him (Matthew 4:7, Deuteronomy 6:16, Exodus 17:2, Exodus 20:7). This commandment eliminates the possibility of getting a demonstration outside of genuinely desiring to be in his will. You have to seek him and operate under his name genuinely; only then will his power manifest. On his terms—when you ask in his name. God is not a flute to be played.
The Experience
Recently, after taking some time to come to grips with my eyes being opened by God and seeing the black hearts, the greed, corruption and the extent of the network that has wrapped this world, I was finally able to get back on the horse and move forward.
We are forged in the fire
I see the daily attack on the King, Ishi (Hosea 2:16) every day and the spewing of Baali from the mouths in such blasphemous and vile disregard. It saddens my heart to hear and see the disrespect of the Highest and the death march everywhere (Isaiah 5:14).
This journey is so daunting that we all seek solace in the crowd. I wished to journey with companions, but the voices started as soon as that thought entered my head. Immediately, there was a barrage of whispers shouting in my head. The voice was soft and gentle but persistent that I should not take this course of action. I had heard these voices before, and I had not always got it correct in the past—there are many voices, but which one is that of the King? I tried to ignore it, but would it be to my detriment? The will of the Highest is not always your will; what do you do?
I spoke in my heart to the King and said, if this path is not your will, then let the call fail. Let it be so that I cannot speak with this person. I proceeded to dial confidently that the matter was out of my hands and in God’s hands. It rang twice, then disconnected. I looked at my phone, which read, “couldn’t connect”. I was stunned. I dialled again, but it didn’t ring this time; it just said it couldn’t connect. It was now clear no matter how the real-world mechanics of this played out.
It was not in his will for me to journey with others—I don’t know why, but this is the case.
Should I now doubt when everything leading to this point has culminated in the logical deduction based on the evidence? It is plain to see, and I believe because I have seen. This experience was one of many.
Am I righteous: My journey to righteousness
I have sinned many times on this journey, but I have purposed in my heart with determination to walk the path set before me by God. I have repented with sincerity, and I walk following his word. He has rewarded me with wisdom and has opened my eyes to the utter depravity of this world. The hearts of men and the state of this world are as black as Night. I follow the bright and morning star—the Sun, which shines by Day, and no man stumbles.
I will call his name Ishi and not Baali—be damned all who oppose Him and his servants!
